Feel my positivity draining away. It was good keeping up with the momentum and enthusiasm for the few days, but with the revelation of a new grade in the grade book that isn't so pretty, I feel all my energy seeping away. This isn't right.
Lately, I realized that I'm not studying for myself. For certain reasons the degree has become a huge task and responsibility. I need, need the second upper honours. I'm working hard for it. But it looks like something's determining me to not get too close. I need this, I really do. It's not even in my own interest anymore.
I need to feel that it is possible.
Saturday, April 07, 2012
After a few rounds of performances with CJ, it's time to be on hiatus to focus on my upcoming exams. Been both stressed and inspired in terms of singing. I really hope I can be freed of unnecessary barriers and absorb the new techniques like a clean slate. I need to believe in myself.
Here come these nights where I breath a sigh of relief that a busy period is over, the performances are over whether awesome or not so great, and I could sit down and chill for a bit. And here come these nights where I fall back on my trustee mandopop melodrama songs to relax, to feel a bit more sane and at home about singing. Just for these few nights, I forgo the techniques I am supposed to train, and just sing, whisper, breathe the songs just for their lyrics... And deliver them with the raw emotions that hardly come when I get too uptight.
These nights act like mini getaways from reality sometimes.
Turn up your volume if you do listen. It was so brief I couldn't care less to set up my mic and softwares. Goodnight... and good morning :)
Hello
Clovergreen♥
There's more to things than you'll ever know,
but I'm beginning to anticipate the unknown.
Smile,
because you are worth it.
Protagonist
Tey Xiao Wei
08021991
NUS FASS
Victoria Junior College
CHIJ SN
